Black Holes and Revelations

i forgot about this place

2008-05-07T22:44:50Z

its been ages since i wrote here.
i saw Iron Man earlier on today. it gave me the same butterflies in my stomach that Transformers did.
i loved it like woah! it was a very sexy movie.

well minor news, i got my wii. it's great. i play warcraft too much... oh well. i have been very emo and weird the last few days. i'm hoping its going to be over soon cause can't function right.

wii

2008-04-19T13:41:44Z

i just ordered myself a nintendo wii. woo! i am such a copycat.

i am also doing well on my diet. one week and i can feel the difference not eating junk food.

also, i am really bad at replying to comments and whatnot. sorry. i shall catch up with everyon who omments when i get in from work!

good karma?

2008-04-17T23:57:02Z

sometimes you have to ignore your own suspicions, paranoia and even logic and just take what someone says at face value. especially when it makes you feel good about yourself. and right now, i am a happy bunny.

well anyway. yesterday the swansea college was pretty much closed and most of our lecturers were on strike. of course we were told to come in as usual, and then told oh, no lesson today, your teacher is out on the picket line. grr. so i got up early for nothing.
however... :) i am damned glad i did.
i decided to go into town and pass the time until the afternoon (when we would have had a lesson cause our other lecturer was not striking cause she belonged to a different union). i was texting michelle when a guy from the Phones4u shop asked me if i wanted to see if i was eligible for an upgrade. i figured it'd be a way to pass some time. well it turns out that my contract is just ending anyway, and they found me a new better contract that costs me less and gives me more, and i get a new phone free to boot. so now i am the proud owner of a samsung u600. i kind of miss my old moto v3 with its big keypad for the following reason..

for the first time in my life i have nail extensions. it's impossible to text, type quietly, undo my own piercings, apply makeup without making a mess, or pick money up off a flat surface. but ooh so worth it. i think if i have the money, i'll have some nail art done.

i also had a brilliant phone call with michelle. we really really need to text eachother more often.
i can't wait to move to portsmouth. michelle has said i can stay with her while i job hunt (yay). and when i have found my own place i can get my doggie. i hope i can afford to live on my own. finding a flatmate would be alright i guess. but... to me on my own. it would be new and different.

okay in warcraft news (cause you know i have no life) i have done a major big purge of all alt toons i just don't play. got rid of about 10 i think. three off my main server, two off the pvp server, two off the other radon pve server i played on for about 5 seconds, two off the backup pve server i dump all my toon that i just can't delete but don't actually want and one off the rp server. mad.
on my main server i was going to delete my paladin, then i logged in to get all the stuff out of her bank etc and i was reminded of why i hadn't already deleted it. so yeah, i might level that toon a little.

frazzled

2008-04-10T11:37:47Z

so i started back at college after two weeks off. eeek!
my assignments are done except for one two week diary, which i am writing for these next two weeks. phew. thats a massive weight gone.
now its just practical stuff. one of my lecturers has written a list of the things i need to get signed off for now. so it doesn't seem so daunting, but theres still a lot of stuff i need to do in the next two months.
i know i have a client today so hopefully there'll be something else i can get signed off.

i worked loads over the easter holidays that last week i did 10 days without a day off. doesn't bother me though cause i did get lazy mornings still. so i am hoping for a yummy big paycheque in two weeks. the bank never got back to me about a loan so i'll have to call them again.

warcrafty ramblings
i have rediscovered my undead priest. i think horde side i have tried every race/class combination that even vaguely appeals to me and i can't get along with any of them. i 'want' to have a mage. but deep down the thought of a toon with no heals is scary. so i am back to my dead girl priest. although i have discovered that elemental shamans are totally op i took my 32 taruen shaman (recently respec'ed) to stv and was taking out the level 36 orges easy.
but yes. i am back to my priest i think i am just going to stick with her although one my shaman hits 40 and i can respec back to enh and get two daggers maybe i'll have a change of heart. at this popint though. i am seriously considering just deleting all my toons under level 10. and freeing up space on the server again for 'new' toons.
oh and i transfered my hunter to runetotem. i don't want to play that toon, but i don't really want to delete her either, so that seemed the best option. she had 19g on her and i considered taking that, but i have alts on that server too, so i figured at least they have a bit of funding.

reall quick post

2008-04-02T20:17:10Z

this was on the wow_ladies comm (and was deleted pretty quick - not exactly wow related is it)

today

2008-03-27T09:55:40Z

so far today i have eaten a bowl of special k, a glass of apple juice (not from concentrate) and a cup of tea.
for lunch i had eggy bread with cheese in it. the bread was wholemeal granary, and it was cooked without extra fat. i also had a muller rice pudding and 3 slices of chicken ham (not ham cause it was all chicken, but you know what i mean).
for dinner i ate another three slices of chicken ham, with a couscous salad and another muller rice thing and another glass of juice.
throughout the day i had 3 cups of coffee and 3 cups of tea and i'm about to make myself another tea and an options hot chocolate... and a bagel.

thats terrible. i started so well.
on the other hand. i waled to the bank and back again this morning, and then this afternoon i went on a walk with my dogs.

i guess it could have been much worse.

yes i obsess over food.

tomorrow i plan to eat juice and special k for breakfast again, i have smoked salmon to use up so maybe have that in a sandwich. and i'm not sure about dinner, i think its lasagna.
and while i am at work i will NOT buy any snacks or chocolate or anything liek that. dammit!

oh

2008-03-26T23:06:43Z

i have spent the last week or so eating junk food. and now i feel like crap. serves me right really.
but why? why the hell did i eat so much sugar and fatty food? i know it's bad for me. i know it gives me spots, makes me gain weight, makes me tired and lethargic. what is so hard about 'not' eating junk? my relationship with 'food' is so warped. logic, common sense, and reason have no place here.

in warcraft news. battlegrounds are fun. who knew. my shaman doesn't do 'too' badly. i die a lot, but i do fair damage, i'm usually about the middle on the ranking board thingie. whatever that means. i'm going to have to mess about with my UI again, since the new patch, i can't seem to see cooldowns anymore. so i have to click a lot. maybe, maube i should consider slinking back to the default ui for a but? i don't want to, i like my pretty interface. but if i can see my icons clearer and will be better at fighting/healing. then it might be worth it..

i have been playing on my old druid (the first toon ever) on a pvp realm, and you know what, its fun! i fixed her talents, ran a few dungeons, healed (oh my gosh druid healing is love! HoT heals are fab and combat rez *drool*), earned some gold, and started fixing her gear. i plan to level her to outland then maybe, maybe transfer her to my main server to be with my shaman.. maybe i should try tanking with my druid too? i better read up on that cause i have noooo idea.

ok. time to make myself a cup if tea and go read.

random, but irritated

2008-03-25T00:35:46Z

you know what really annoys me. when your reading something and the author or writer blames any nonsense, bad spelling, and general crappyness on 'being ill' or the 'flu medication' or 'being feverish' and that they are sorry for what their mind might come up with while under the influence of said things.
no really! if your 'that' sick you need to get the hell off the internet.
if they said, 'i'm tired and sick and my typing is sloppy and i can't be bothered to correct it', then that would be ok, it's honest.
but really, it's not clever to write anything silly and then go blaming an illness like flu for giving you a delusional mind (their words not mine). if it was really the flu, you wouldn't even be able to sit at your computer.
what you have is a mild cold, and your medication is probably bog standard ibuprofen and being silly to show off that you're ill is not cool.

ok that's my bitchfest done.
also, wordpress is a pain in the ass. i wonder if movabletype is any easier?

can't talk. reading.

2008-03-20T23:34:49Z

oookay. change of plan. i'm 'not' leaving college. one term left. i need to work hard to finish my work on time.
i have homework to finish over the weekend then that's all the assignments out of the way. /cry

i have lots a bit of interest in playing warcraft. its the gold grind for my epic flying skill.
although that firefly vanity pet dropped for me today which is very nice. no i will not be keeping it. i'd rather have my little sporebat (that i don't have yet cause i am still working of my sporeggar rep)
warcraft wont let me log on again now. well thats ok. the server was having a hissy fit earlier on anyways.

oh dear. i have so little to say its not even funny.
i'm going to go back to reading now. i finished reading Feet of Clay (terry pratchett) pretty quick. i found that book really good but very sad. the whole golem situation was very tragic, and i know it was supposed to be kind of light hearted, but i couldn't help but get upset and certain parts of the story. well i have moved on to Men at Arms now. another 'Watch' related story which is a shame cause i'm not keen on the Vimes charatcer and when its about regular people Death isn't in it enough for my liking.

okay... where do i start?

2008-03-10T11:27:24Z

warcraft:
my respec to resto was short lived. you seriously can achieve nothing while resto. i was a squishy as hell and frankly i did not heal any more efficiently. i think a serious amount of practice is on order so i shall be leveling my baby shaman as elemental so i can get used to playing a shaman as a caster. then i'll go ahead with a respec. i enjoy healing, and i want to be resto. it's just not practical at the moment.
i have begun the long and painful gold grind for my epic flying skill. gah.

college:
on the verge of quitting. basically i am just waiting for my manager at work to say that i have have full time hours. i feel really crap about this and it's the source of my constant headaches.
college is a waste of my time because i will never use the qualification. oh i enjoy learing how to be a hairdresser but when it comes down to it. i don't actually like the idea of cutting or colouring a total strangers hair. but i would have liked to see it through anyways out of principal.
but i really really can't afford to. i have taken to not answering the phone because i know it's someone who wants money off me. i had wanted to go back to portsmouth over easter but there's no way that's going to happen.
besides if i am not at college i don't have to wait till half term/end of term to go anywhere which is a bonus i guess.
i know that leaving college is the right thing to do. hell i can always do that course again later on in my life if i must. but i feel like a quitter. like i messed up real bad with this one.

diet:
meh. i had pie and chocolate yesterday. but it was sunday and you gotta be naughty sometimes. other than that, it's ok. i'm still not exercising enough (... not at all...) whoch really would help things along. but the main point is really, i am not gaining weight and i am losing.. veeeery slowly. better than nothing.

web design:
later on this week i need to have a good look at my websites and figure out all the places where the code isn't valid. if i'm going to try to be a serious web designer i really need to work out the validation thing. /cry

ding

2008-03-07T00:19:37Z

my shaman hit 70 today.
i have a screen shot, but she is wearing the most rediculous gear....

i respec'ed to resto (have to tinker with my talents now mind you), got my flying mount and started the quest chain for my netherwing rep.
still gotta work on my sporeggar rep.

ninja

2008-02-17T13:14:22Z

ok quick ninja post because i must but really cant focus on writing at the moment.

i visited portsmouth last tuesday and got back friday and had a ace time. i loved spending time with becki and michelle, i just wish i had given myself more time to spend with my gran too. (actually just more time in general would have done).
beetlebugbecki has got me addicted to 24. and gave me one lonesome little dread. suddenly i like the idea of having dreads :)
me and michelle have resolved to call each other every day otherwise we tend to just stop talking and then have loads to catch up in when we do start talking again hehe.
my shaman is level 65, 80% till 66. i have nearly a full set of healing gear - some if it is leather and cloth :( but who cares really.

oh and here's some word association

Passport :: photo

Small world :: planet (ooh original)

Radio :: toaster (yeh you know, charatcers from the Brave little Toaster movie...)

Marine :: manta ray

Wall :: brick

Wanna be :: grey (errm..)

Pigtails :: pink

Hyphen :: -

9.99 :: emergency number (i disregard the decimal)

Unrated :: no gold stars (you know, like they have on amazon)

from Subliminal

QQ

2008-02-05T01:43:12Z

it's no good. i can make all the excuses i want, i was a bad healer.

not bad, i say

2008-02-01T12:12:01Z

i have to stop eating chocolate. i 'had' lost half a stone. i probably put that back on now. darn it.
though on the plus side i am ill again and therefore have no appetite. i gotta take advantage of this :)

the design for nocturnal.nu was finished a while back. i have rewritten a fair bit of the content, and have a few things to add to my portfolio and i plan to add a Closed Portfolio of things i have made just for me but are still display worthy.

i haven't done a warcraft ramble for a while, but some fab things have happened recently so here goes.
my shammy hit 63. yes i know. slooow! but i have been messing about in lowbie areas and helping guildies and farming recently so that's my excuse.
i joined a pug for scholomance 2 days ago, and excluding guild runs, it was the single best run i have ever been on. at first there was me (shammy), two locks, a dps warrior and a hunter. i was healing, and apparently did a great job of it. we wiped a lot (6-7 times) because of bad pulls and accidental aggro, but we learned from it, and i only had to run back 2 times from the graveyard between the two locks soulstoning me and my reincarnation. we were all really chatty and good natured about everything which is so refreshing. the hunter was a bit useless and he left pretty early anyway, he was replaced with a resto shaman. which meant i got to shine as dps, which i did by topping the meters by a fair bit :)
by then most of us were at 0 durability so we hearthed, repaired and resummoned in shifts (never been in a group that was willing to do that!).
then, and this is the bit that really tickled me. i started to get whispers from the group saying i healed better then the resto shaman. that really made my day. i was worried about my healing just cause i don't get a chance to heal in groups that are the same level as me very much. i even set up my action bar so i could use keybindings for my heals, normally i am a bit rubbish with using the keyboard, but using keys to cast and the mouse to target worked out really well.
it was great, we finished the run, i made new friends, i learned a lot about threat management, and learned that i love healing, oh and topped the dps despite the 10 minute bit where i only had one dagger and my armor was dead :)
it was one of those rare moments where the game was really properly fun to play.

ok enough geeky waffling, time to find lunch, and sort my hair out, and think seriously about my website.

well its tough

2008-01-25T14:35:29Z

stfu gym leader. i know i keep losing to you, i know it's cause my pokemon are the wrong type to be fighting you. i don't care. and when my water type beats the crap out of your electric type, boy will your face be red.

but on the plus side, i got the new design for nocturnal nearly finished. hoorah.

wtfomg!

2008-01-24T15:11:56Z

every week that goes by, i get worse at web design. i thought i was ok with all this crap. ok i'll never have a good grasp of php. but i'm not entirely useless with css, and my photoshop skills don't fail completely.
but every design i make for my portfolio.. i hate after about 5 minutes, give up and try something new.

its beginning to make me really irritable.

sad mell.. really sad

2008-01-22T22:39:27Z

she dared me to do it! i swear.

today at college we had to write a valentines poem for someone we admired or inspired us. and we had to make a card for it to go on. naturally mine was black and white and abstract and had a circuit board print and hearts on it. i thought it was quite creative for such short notice.

these valentines cards are going up on the wall. for the whole of the Hair and Beauty department to see.
i wrote my poem for... Optimus Prime.

oh yes. today i reached a whole new level of geekery.

not a lot

2008-01-11T15:00:52Z

well it's been what? a month since i posted last. not an awful lot has happened but you wouldn't expect that from me anyway.

xmas came and went without incident. though i did go out with the girls from college on our last day of term. that was a laugh! well all met up at college for a buffet in the salon (there was no lesson or clients) most of us got makeovers (i was left feeling very girly which is quite alien to me haha), then we all taxied into town. i live so far away from everywhere that i had to leave at about 10pm cause mum was picking me up. all the buses that go from swansea to where i live actually stop at about 6:30. how damed useless is that?

i have renewed enthusiasm for hairdressing and am catching up with my 'skills' so thats all good. thank god. I was so close to quitting and i would have hated myself for that, now i am thinking i might invest in a better pair of scissors :D

i have a load of time booked off in feb and march so i am hoping to travel down to portsmouth, but at the moment i'm not sure i have anywhere to stay. i will be really gutted if i don't go. it'll have been nearly two and a half years since i moved. i really have an itch to go back, though i am expecting a culture shock again.

i'm downloading the score from the transformers movie as i write this /geek
i have a little collection of transformers toys growing on my desk here i'll be adding the voyager class Blackout and Scorponok to that collection soon, and i really need to hunt down a G1 style Starscream.
eventually i'll be over this silliness. but no time soon.

i have been eating healthily for a week and a half now. i decided not to do an all out diet because i fail at those. i have lost 5lb. i would love to take credit for all of that but i've been ill the last couple of days and off my food haha. there is the 'flu' going around here. and i got it i think. normally i really really hate when people call a cold or even a bad cold the flu cause its totally different. but i had the proper flu symptoms, i got in from college curled up on the sofa with my quilt and couldn't move. every muscle and joint hurt so much. but then two days later and it's gone! i still cough a lot but no headache or anything.
at least i was properly and genuinely ill :) i took the day off college and i didn't have to fake of exaggerate anything. not that i ever do that.

in warcraft news. i am really angry at my paladin. i tried all morning to complete the last 'big' quest in the draenei starting area (ending their world) and i still can't do it on my own. all the other characters i have done this quest with have never needed the recommended 2 players to finish it, so what the hell is wrong here? maybe i just play badly?
so in the end i joined a run through the DM. and was assigned the job of healer. which also made me angry but i did ok. the priest only had to back me up a few times..... yes really. the priest who can heal a lot more than me faster than me wouldn't so it, cause she was shadow spec. i hate when people try to pull that bullshit. so i didn't heal her at all. unless i thought i might need her to rez me because out tank wasn't tanking all that well (not really badly, i have no complaints, in fact it might have just been that people weren't watching their aggro). i'm thinking of resetting my talents and going 100% prot. i so want to tank.. so much.

also, i love my icon. i didn't make it (credit is on the icons page) but it is the sex anyway.

warcraft woes

2007-12-29T22:53:05Z

i had trouble connecting to warcraft earlier on. the forum yielded this solution.
go;
start> run> cmd

then type in
ipconfig/flushdns

and enter that.

this loaded the news server and i had to do it again to actually log into the game.

xmas

2007-12-26T08:33:22Z

xmas.. it always seems like an anti-climax to me.
i'll write more later on today, i just wanted to make an appearance :P

warcraft is dead

2007-12-14T14:19:56Z

damn. my realm is down (like a lot of others).
it was playing up yesterday as well. i had just got my 24 shammy into a group to run RFK and we all lagged out and couldn't sign in for maybe over an hour. later on you could tell something was up because Orgrimmar was empty, there were like, 3 people there, and at that time of evening? it was a bit surreal.

and the server is down again today. something to do with the Cyclone battlegroup.
i am hoping it will be back up again when i get in from work this evening (at abut 10:00pm btw any guildies who read this :) ).

icon!

2007-12-06T13:34:08Z

i need some 'Heroes' themed icons.
*fangirls*

zomg!

2007-12-03T22:03:54Z

ppl hu rite n chat spk need 2 b shot. kthxbai.

it's not clever or funny, it just makes you look stupid and makes me stop talking to you. and don't give me the "it's a valid modern language" crap. it's hideous.

and on a totally unrelated subject. warcraft spammers have a new tactic. invite to group and spaaam.
i recorded over 10 different character names that tried to spam me today (i was signed in intermittently all day) and it's incredibly frustrating.

quick post

2007-11-23T21:00:42Z

so i have been off college for a week. the 'official' reason is headaches. and while thats true it's not the full story. i think i just felt burnt out. which i feel is unreasonable because i don't work hard enough for that. but thats it. i have spent the week with a constant dull headache and general pathetic weakness (and lots of sleep). i am feeling better and more cheerful now so i think i did just need a week off.

on the other hand, being at home a lot has meant i have played warcraft a lot! so i am a little burnt out with that as well. i decided not to 'play' at all yesterday (i did give in the urge to check my mail and get the names of a few things i was stuck with) and i haven't signed on today yet. if we don't do a run anywhere this evening i might leave it for today as well.

i think i'd rather read :)

unplug the internet!!

2007-11-17T14:17:36Z

i should be doing my homework. it's ok. once i start it'll only take me an hour and a half to do. i just don't wanna.
i have finished the conclusion to my health and safety assignment (which is all of 3 very very short paragraphs). all thats left is to type up my job description in the salon ande the code of conduct. and copy&paste some info on trading standards acts.

in other epic news.
my shaman hit 58 and ventured into Outland.

i'll add more about that later on when i have had a chance to have an explore. seriously though i feel like a total noob there. are the mobs tougher there? normally i could take out something 3 levels higher then me alright, but i had to bail after taking on a lvl 61 regular mob.
my little shammy also fell ion love with a Fel Reaver. the feeling was not mutual and she had to make a quick escape to avoid death. she is convinced he just needs time...