so far today i have eaten a bowl of special k, a glass of apple juice (not from concentrate) and a cup of tea.
for lunch i had eggy bread with cheese in it. the bread was wholemeal granary, and it was cooked without extra fat. i also had a muller rice pudding and 3 slices of chicken ham (not ham cause it was all chicken, but you know what i mean).
for dinner i ate another three slices of chicken ham, with a couscous salad and another muller rice thing and another glass of juice.
throughout the day i had 3 cups of coffee and 3 cups of tea and i'm about to make myself another tea and an options hot chocolate... and a bagel.

thats terrible. i started so well.
on the other hand. i waled to the bank and back again this morning, and then this afternoon i went on a walk with my dogs.

i guess it could have been much worse.

yes i obsess over food.

tomorrow i plan to eat juice and special k for breakfast again, i have smoked salmon to use up so maybe have that in a sandwich. and i'm not sure about dinner, i think its lasagna.
and while i am at work i will NOT buy any snacks or chocolate or anything liek that. dammit!

Tags: diet and exercise

warcraft:
my respec to resto was short lived. you seriously can achieve nothing while resto. i was a squishy as hell and frankly i did not heal any more efficiently. i think a serious amount of practice is on order so i shall be leveling my baby shaman as elemental so i can get used to playing a shaman as a caster. then i'll go ahead with a respec. i enjoy healing, and i want to be resto. it's just not practical at the moment.
i have begun the long and painful gold grind for my epic flying skill. gah.

college:
on the verge of quitting. basically i am just waiting for my manager at work to say that i have have full time hours. i feel really crap about this and it's the source of my constant headaches.
college is a waste of my time because i will never use the qualification. oh i enjoy learing how to be a hairdresser but when it comes down to it. i don't actually like the idea of cutting or colouring a total strangers hair. but i would have liked to see it through anyways out of principal.
but i really really can't afford to. i have taken to not answering the phone because i know it's someone who wants money off me. i had wanted to go back to portsmouth over easter but there's no way that's going to happen.
besides if i am not at college i don't have to wait till half term/end of term to go anywhere which is a bonus i guess.
i know that leaving college is the right thing to do. hell i can always do that course again later on in my life if i must. but i feel like a quitter. like i messed up real bad with this one.

diet:
meh. i had pie and chocolate yesterday. but it was sunday and you gotta be naughty sometimes. other than that, it's ok. i'm still not exercising enough (... not at all...) whoch really would help things along. but the main point is really, i am not gaining weight and i am losing.. veeeery slowly. better than nothing.

web design:
later on this week i need to have a good look at my websites and figure out all the places where the code isn't valid. if i'm going to try to be a serious web designer i really need to work out the validation thing. /cry

Tags: college, diet and exercise, graphics & code, world of warcraft
Current Mood: anxious

i have to stop eating chocolate. i 'had' lost half a stone. i probably put that back on now. darn it.
though on the plus side i am ill again and therefore have no appetite. i gotta take advantage of this :)

the design for nocturnal.nu was finished a while back. i have rewritten a fair bit of the content, and have a few things to add to my portfolio and i plan to add a Closed Portfolio of things i have made just for me but are still display worthy.

i haven't done a warcraft ramble for a while, but some fab things have happened recently so here goes.
my shammy hit 63. yes i know. slooow! but i have been messing about in lowbie areas and helping guildies and farming recently so that's my excuse.
i joined a pug for scholomance 2 days ago, and excluding guild runs, it was the single best run i have ever been on. at first there was me (shammy), two locks, a dps warrior and a hunter. i was healing, and apparently did a great job of it. we wiped a lot (6-7 times) because of bad pulls and accidental aggro, but we learned from it, and i only had to run back 2 times from the graveyard between the two locks soulstoning me and my reincarnation. we were all really chatty and good natured about everything which is so refreshing. the hunter was a bit useless and he left pretty early anyway, he was replaced with a resto shaman. which meant i got to shine as dps, which i did by topping the meters by a fair bit :)
by then most of us were at 0 durability so we hearthed, repaired and resummoned in shifts (never been in a group that was willing to do that!).
then, and this is the bit that really tickled me. i started to get whispers from the group saying i healed better then the resto shaman. that really made my day. i was worried about my healing just cause i don't get a chance to heal in groups that are the same level as me very much. i even set up my action bar so i could use keybindings for my heals, normally i am a bit rubbish with using the keyboard, but using keys to cast and the mouse to target worked out really well.
it was great, we finished the run, i made new friends, i learned a lot about threat management, and learned that i love healing, oh and topped the dps despite the 10 minute bit where i only had one dagger and my armor was dead :)
it was one of those rare moments where the game was really properly fun to play.

ok enough geeky waffling, time to find lunch, and sort my hair out, and think seriously about my website.

Tags: diet and exercise, graphics & code, world of warcraft
Current Mood: bouncy

well it's been what? a month since i posted last. not an awful lot has happened but you wouldn't expect that from me anyway.

xmas came and went without incident. though i did go out with the girls from college on our last day of term. that was a laugh! well all met up at college for a buffet in the salon (there was no lesson or clients) most of us got makeovers (i was left feeling very girly which is quite alien to me haha), then we all taxied into town. i live so far away from everywhere that i had to leave at about 10pm cause mum was picking me up. all the buses that go from swansea to where i live actually stop at about 6:30. how damed useless is that?

i have renewed enthusiasm for hairdressing and am catching up with my 'skills' so thats all good. thank god. I was so close to quitting and i would have hated myself for that, now i am thinking i might invest in a better pair of scissors :D

i have a load of time booked off in feb and march so i am hoping to travel down to portsmouth, but at the moment i'm not sure i have anywhere to stay. i will be really gutted if i don't go. it'll have been nearly two and a half years since i moved. i really have an itch to go back, though i am expecting a culture shock again.

i'm downloading the score from the transformers movie as i write this /geek
i have a little collection of transformers toys growing on my desk here i'll be adding the voyager class Blackout and Scorponok to that collection soon, and i really need to hunt down a G1 style Starscream.
eventually i'll be over this silliness. but no time soon.

i have been eating healthily for a week and a half now. i decided not to do an all out diet because i fail at those. i have lost 5lb. i would love to take credit for all of that but i've been ill the last couple of days and off my food haha. there is the 'flu' going around here. and i got it i think. normally i really really hate when people call a cold or even a bad cold the flu cause its totally different. but i had the proper flu symptoms, i got in from college curled up on the sofa with my quilt and couldn't move. every muscle and joint hurt so much. but then two days later and it's gone! i still cough a lot but no headache or anything.
at least i was properly and genuinely ill :) i took the day off college and i didn't have to fake of exaggerate anything. not that i ever do that.

in warcraft news. i am really angry at my paladin. i tried all morning to complete the last 'big' quest in the draenei starting area (ending their world) and i still can't do it on my own. all the other characters i have done this quest with have never needed the recommended 2 players to finish it, so what the hell is wrong here? maybe i just play badly?
so in the end i joined a run through the DM. and was assigned the job of healer. which also made me angry but i did ok. the priest only had to back me up a few times..... yes really. the priest who can heal a lot more than me faster than me wouldn't so it, cause she was shadow spec. i hate when people try to pull that bullshit. so i didn't heal her at all. unless i thought i might need her to rez me because out tank wasn't tanking all that well (not really badly, i have no complaints, in fact it might have just been that people weren't watching their aggro). i'm thinking of resetting my talents and going 100% prot. i so want to tank.. so much.

also, i love my icon. i didn't make it (credit is on the icons page) but it is the sex anyway.

Tags: college, diet and exercise, world of warcraft
Current Mood: hungry
Current Music: Nemesis by VNV Nation (rawr)

yes alright i am finally making a real post. one month later *for shame*

right lets break it down;

Diet - what diet? going terrible but i am still not actually gaining weight. i am 'trying' to do a bit better but just a bit. as of next week i am going to start taking my lunch to college (except on wednesdays, that's our 'eat a proper meal at college for a treat' day). see if i don't! i need suggestions on what i can take with me though. there is no facility for hot water so taking things like soup and those low cal/low fat super noodle pots is out.

College - brilliant. my class is meshing together so well, right at the beginning we were sort of separated into 2-3 different smaller groups of friends, but now the whole lot of us goes to break and lunch together. it's cool! i was quite behind with a lot of the practical work but i have caught up. i just need to do a forward graduation and square layers cut and i'll exactly where i need to be. my health and safety assignment is not going as well cause i am lazy. i'll be doing a nice chunk of that today before signing onto warcraft.

Money - what money? i think in two months i'll be able to afford to get new lenses for my glasses so i'll be able to see again *joy*. been chatting to mum again about me moving out and whether i'll actually be able to afford to when i leave college. basically no, cause i will still have one year left on my loan and one credit card to pay off (not worried about the card, the apr is good). so we'll work that out when the time comes. the idea of moving out is incredibly exciting still.

i am really annoyed that the score for the transformers movie isn't available to download from itunes yet (i wonder if i can get it from the USA version?) and that i have to wait until 3 dec for the dvd when the jammy bastards in America already have it.

Tags: college, diet and exercise
Current Mood: nerdy

soo...
i have my final 'interview' at college tomorrow. presumably to get all the paperwork sorted out and get my bus pass. yes i did do my trial bus run. so now i know where all the stops are. i need to catch the bus at 7:30 in the morning and that should get me to college just before 9:00.
hopefully tomorrow the college will be able to tell me what is going on with my uniform/kit. my kit is paid for and i know is delivered to the college itself. but my uniform seems to be in limbo. my application and cheque for it was sent. but it's not come out of my account yet. unless the college already paid for it with the funding and that too will be waiting for me on the first day (way to let my try it on first guys!).
i am terrified and excited at the same time.
i know my time will be valuable. i have to fit full time college and at least 20 hours of work a week. plus looking after my dog, housework oh and warcraft. *slips into coma* this is going to be an exhausting year. but totally worth it.

my warcraft life has been bitchslapped back to the Undercity. basically us four guild leaders decided to up and leave Twisting Nether - a PvP (player vs player)realm and move to a PvE (player vs environment) realm. which is brilliant and works for me because i am awful at PvP. except i am lagging behind because i can't afford to transfer my shaman yet.. for a reason i will get to eventually in this post. i miss my shaman so much. buuut, at the same time, during the transfer all four of us rolled horde characters. which i have enjoyed. i couldn't decide on a class at first. who knew that a horde shaman would 'feel' so different to alliance. i have finally settled with an undead priest called Stårscrêam (shadow spec of course). the playstyle is wickedly different between my two characters and i like that. i also love that i get a lot of invites to heal in dungeons. i like healing, though not as much on my priest as my shammy. still, i have finally caught up in level with the rest of my guild now, i was behind because i went though shaman and mage characters (to level 12) before my priest. i plan to focus a bit more on my shaman when i transfer her, to get her to 58 so i can go to outland, never been there, and i feel like i am missing out.

i bought pokémon pearl. teehee.
i only have 4 pokemon at the moment, because i am 'not' catching any i don't like the look of. petty isn't it. naturally. i already have myself a zubat (a crobat fronts my team all the time, this game is no exception). i started with the grass type (who's name eludes me at the moment) and i have a shinx and oddly enough, for the first time ever, an onix. two of them are level 13 and i am working to get the other two to that level as well so i can level them all equally. my playstyle for this game is so totally different from all the others i have played. i think warcraft has educated me. cause get this.. i use tactics! i never, ever, used to use stat changing moves, i deemed them a waste of a move. so yeah, that's cool. that's something i can do on the bus to college. /geek

thats one reason i can't afford my warcraft character transfer. the other is that i spent £50 on a pinstripe corset off ebay. yeh, totally worth it :) i'm waiting for it to be delivered at the moment, knowing my luck it won't fit (at worst it will be too small, but i am fat, so it won't kill me to lose some weight).
i also bought some new 'essential' clothes in tesco, trousers, tops oh and a black waistcoat. not sure what i will wear that with. but i wanted one anyway.

my application to the thefanlisting.org to open a fanlist for Blackout was approved. I have played around with a design; prototype one. i am not happy with the navigation though. i can tell something is missing, other than the content and the decepticon logo but i can't see what it is. i have a few modifications going round my head, so we'll see how they go.
still need to work on my main website as well. i'm not sure exactly what to do with it. i should also sign into msn more often too.

oh you know what i need is a computer that can handle running warcraft and trillian instant messenger at the same time. problem solved. apple should manufacture their macbook pro in black.

i've been a little bit better recently on my diet. not enough to make a difference. but i don't think i am gaining weight anymore. i have also been walking my dog a bit longer than i was so that helps.

sorry i never actually replied to anyone's comments on my last post. i think i elaborated on most of my list here anyway.
but yeh playbunnii, the ending to the transformers movie was a bit strange, i mean after the fight, Optimus Prime (who is still awesome really..) holding the two bits of Jazz was all "we lost a comrade, but gained new friends, so yah know, whatever". he lost is second in command! i want grief and mourning! i want to see emo robot tears! he was more upset when Megatron died (and fandom could give several reasons for this, each more perverse than the last). and also, other than for action eye candy, why did the fight occur in the middle of a city? need to hide an Allspark? just go the the most densely populated area you can think of, problem solved. duh.
kikazu, yes i was going to close nocturnal. but not anymore. i was just feeling down about it.
and taishokao, please send memo to Megatron. Leave Starscream alone!! 'he' didn't get himself frozen for thousands of years did he, so back off. kthxbai. :P

thus ends my giant post. mostly because it's late and i have to be up early for work tomorrow.

Tags: college, diet and exercise, graphics & code, pokémon, world of warcraft

Mum took me to the college at the beginning of the week to check up on 1. my course info - what i was going to need for it and 2. whether i am able to get any financial help while i am a student. it looks like mum earns too much for me to be eligible for full financial support, meaning i am going to have to pay for my kit, uniform and transport all myself. though the bus pass is automatically at a reduced rate. the kit and uniform are going to cost me just under £300 eek. i will get a little assistance money wise, all of £400 per term that really isn't a lot. ha. but its better then nothing i suppose.
the college told me that i would receive the price list for all the stuff i would need in the post, and i did. it's actually really cool. it sort of, confirms that its really happening, i really am going to college :)

diet wise, these last two weeks i have properly bolloxed it up! i gained 2 1/2 lb last week and this week.. well i don't know, i didn't go in the end. i know i gained, so whats the point in going? i'm seriously thinking of just taking a break from going to slimming world. because i am not losing weight. through no fault of the diet mind you. i just can't do it. my day will start so positively and then i'll be sat at lunch or on my break at work, suddenly realise that i'm eating a chocolate bar! and that i managed to buy it and eat half before it even occured to me that i 'shouldn't'. its just silly. why does food have to be so psychological? why can't i just eat to live rather than obsess over what i am or am not eating ALL the time?
well as of this afternoon (yeah i'm not even going to wait till tomorrow to start) i am going to be healthy again. i'll exercise when i get in from work and i am having a healthy dinner. you can come round and beat me up if i don't.

my new gadget of the week is our new sky+ box. hooray. i didn't think i would need it, but being able to pause live tv is actually really useful. i have already used it to record something (the new episode of House last night) for my mum to watch this evening. and i'll be using it on monday to record The Shining while i am watching Life on Mars. damn. it's so sad that being able to record stuff is so exciting to me! haha

sharon at work suggested something coll the other day. where i have taken out my madison piercing i have a horizontal line scar on my throat now. which i don't mind in the slightest, though people do stare at it when they talk to me (better than having my boobs stared at i suppose). anyway, sha suggested i get the same piercing vertically through the first scar, so when i inevitably had to take it out, i would have a + shaped scar on my throat. i laughed... then seriously considered it. ha. i'm not going to, not really, to much hassle but it's a pretty neat idea.

i also own
( these shoes )
only i took the strap off cause it looks silly. :)

Tags: college, diet and exercise, pierced

i received my Provisional Driving license today. hooray! i can learn to drive now.. oh wait, no i can't.
i still haven't made an appointment with my local optician yet. my glasses are pretty much ineffective at the moment. i have only 60-70% vision quality, meaning i can't read a numberplate from the distance you are supposed to be able to read one (hell i sit 4 feet away from my tv and it's still kind of fuzzy!) so i need to have new lenses installed in my glasses, which costs moneys! oh noes!
i also need a haircut.
if it's not raining i'll walk down to Ystrad and book appointments for those two things.

I am pretty close to lvl 44 in warcraft. i managed to work my way through a few quests that i was avoiding which was good. i also ended up rearranging my action bars 'again'. i'm still not happy with it. but i think that's cause it's new and all in a different order now. i have grouped my stuff by 'type' now. so all the defense/resistance related totems are together, all the healing things are together and all the enhancing stuff is together and all the offensive stuff is together and within easy clicking distance. hehe. i also tried to get all my most used spells and whatnot on the main action bar so if for some reason i need to, i can use my keyboard to use them. i think it's ok now. but for a while i kept mixing up the Mana Stream totem with the Grounding totem. which is very bad when you life depends on 'not' being hit by that lightening bolt x_x

i haven't done 'any' exercise the last two days! well except for walking Pandora yesterday... it wasn't raining when i left the house, and just as i got to the gate at the 'end' of the walk (the point where i turn round and go back) the heavens opened and we got soaked, and you try getting your trainers dry when you don't have any central heating!
anyway, i feel bad for not doing my half an hour exercise so i'll have to make sure i do some today! i do 'slightly' have an excuse. our rowing machine is broken. every time i use it the bolt on the left side of the seat comes undone and i have to stop to do it up again. that almost defeats the point if i have to keep stopping.
other than the lack of exercise my diet has been pretty good this week. it started off a bit bad cause i ate a low fat pizza (which was yuk and pointless gimme the full fat calorific one any day) and chocolate (the whole bar.. all to myself mahah). i'm still hoping i have lost 2lb though - wishful thinking? probably.

i am rather looking forward to the pokémon diamond/pearl games that are out soon. i think i am about due for a bout of pokémania. it's been years since i was properly into that fandom (around the gold/silver era).
oh gosh wouldn't it be cool of there was a proper free roaming pokémon mmorpg? even better if it played like warcraft and the battles were time based instead of turn based. i suppose it would even be possible to allow your pokémon armour and stuff, i mean the current games allow your monsters to hold an item that helps them out (whether it allows them to self heal or increases their chance to dodge, etc).
player could still quite easily still be faction based. like in the ruby/sapphire games you essentially chose whther you are going to help Team Magmar or Team Aqua (or whatever they were called ha!).
yes, it could so work and it would be epic. it would also be the only game in the world that would tear me away from warcraft. and i hate to say it but it would tear me away. pokémon was my first fandom, waaay back in the day where there were only 151 of the damn things to remember. haha! i remember being at poisonedwarf's house singing along to the anime theme tune after she wrote down the lyrics (omg! do you remember that, ha that's so sad! and yet so awesome!).

which brings me to my next *squee* worthy bit of news. next pay day mum wants to get a Nintendo Wii. how cool is that? every time one of the ads comes on tv she sighs and say "oh i want one!" (or something to that effect). now we all knew Nintendo were awesome. but i never though they would succeed where i had failed so many times and get my mum into gaming. hooray.

while i remember. Linkin Park's new album is naff! there are two listenable songs on it and that's it.
i guess they didn't really get worse, just my taste in music got better. but i wanted to give them a chance, they were my first taste of *ahem* 'rock' music. now they just need to fade gracefully into the background.

well todays post saw the introduction of three new tags.
and the music i am listening to, is the same music that is used in the Britain's Next Top Model promo on that Living tv channel. i had to do a serious bit of googling to find it.

Tags: diet and exercise, driving, pokémon, world of warcraft
Current Mood: blah
Current Music: Glôsôli by Sigur Rós