Mum took me to the college at the beginning of the week to check up on 1. my course info - what i was going to need for it and 2. whether i am able to get any financial help while i am a student. it looks like mum earns too much for me to be eligible for full financial support, meaning i am going to have to pay for my kit, uniform and transport all myself. though the bus pass is automatically at a reduced rate. the kit and uniform are going to cost me just under £300 eek. i will get a little assistance money wise, all of £400 per term that really isn't a lot. ha. but its better then nothing i suppose.
the college told me that i would receive the price list for all the stuff i would need in the post, and i did. it's actually really cool. it sort of, confirms that its really happening, i really am going to college :)

diet wise, these last two weeks i have properly bolloxed it up! i gained 2 1/2 lb last week and this week.. well i don't know, i didn't go in the end. i know i gained, so whats the point in going? i'm seriously thinking of just taking a break from going to slimming world. because i am not losing weight. through no fault of the diet mind you. i just can't do it. my day will start so positively and then i'll be sat at lunch or on my break at work, suddenly realise that i'm eating a chocolate bar! and that i managed to buy it and eat half before it even occured to me that i 'shouldn't'. its just silly. why does food have to be so psychological? why can't i just eat to live rather than obsess over what i am or am not eating ALL the time?
well as of this afternoon (yeah i'm not even going to wait till tomorrow to start) i am going to be healthy again. i'll exercise when i get in from work and i am having a healthy dinner. you can come round and beat me up if i don't.

my new gadget of the week is our new sky+ box. hooray. i didn't think i would need it, but being able to pause live tv is actually really useful. i have already used it to record something (the new episode of House last night) for my mum to watch this evening. and i'll be using it on monday to record The Shining while i am watching Life on Mars. damn. it's so sad that being able to record stuff is so exciting to me! haha

sharon at work suggested something coll the other day. where i have taken out my madison piercing i have a horizontal line scar on my throat now. which i don't mind in the slightest, though people do stare at it when they talk to me (better than having my boobs stared at i suppose). anyway, sha suggested i get the same piercing vertically through the first scar, so when i inevitably had to take it out, i would have a + shaped scar on my throat. i laughed... then seriously considered it. ha. i'm not going to, not really, to much hassle but it's a pretty neat idea.

i also own
( these shoes )
only i took the strap off cause it looks silly. :)

Tags: college, diet and exercise, pierced

ok i admit defeat. it wasn't going to heal and i have taken it out.

RIP my madison piercing.

of course now my neck looks like shit because i gave the inside of the piercing a good scraping again getting the damned bar out. but i think it will be ok.
it seems to be oozing plasma at the moment from both ends and... the middle.. which i knew was sore but not 'that' bad. so yeah, it was defiantly rejecting. i have attacked it with salt water and aloe vera.

*cry*

Tags: pierced
Current Mood: disappointed

I know it's been ages since i posted.
i missed the new episode of Doctor Who last Saturday cause i had to work. caught the repeat on Sunday though which was good cause it was a brilliant episode. spent the rest of the evening wondering what our stone dragon in the front garden gets up to when i'm not looking.

it was really hot yesterday i did a pretty good job of the summer goth look, mostly cause i had to go into work to find out when i am working this week and i figured i might as well pretend i don't 'always' look as skanky as i do when i am working. it's almost a shame it's so overcast today, it's been raining on and off all day, which for me, is great cause it gets me out of cutting the grass. but did mean i didn't leave the house except to feed the fish (how social am i?!).

for the last few days i have been awesome on my diet, i mean properly awesome. i have eaten loads of fruit (loads by my standards right..) and i haven't been using all my syns every day. i think the most i used was 13 on saturday. not drinking very much milk has made dieting quite a bit easier. i'm hoping i have lost 2lb this week (i gained 1/2 lb last week to i have to make up for that as well). wish me luck for Wednesdays weigh in :D

i have decided that i hate the design i have up on nocturnal.nu it's rubbish. it's too big and the navigation is irritating. so now i am working on a new design oh and guess what, it's a side scrolling design. ha! remember years ago when they were really popular? i had almost forgotten about them, then i was surfing about looking at shoes (as you do..) and i found this site; Irregular Choice - which by the way has some gorgeous shoes. that's saying something because i am not particularly into shoes. but anyway, back to the point. nocturnal. i'll be going back to greyscale, because i love it so much. possibly with green, like my lj layout, because i do like things to match.
i have also finished switching my fanlistings over to the enthusiast script. that makes my life a lot easier. though it took me a few days to add all the members for the Michael list ended up removing 19 members that had broken email addresses.
i also switched my Quilting Bee quilt to the MyQuilt admin script. also easier then adding patches manually :D

i have cut my world of warcraft play time down to weekend only i was spending a little too much time playing and not enough time sorting my websites and doing that other thing.. you know the thing you do when your not at your computer... though i broke my own rule today to ding to level 41. i'm still questing in desolace, i took a break to finish up a few in the swamp of sorrows. trouble is, now that i'm only playing at weekends, leveling is even slower. ah well.

i just cleaned my madison piercing and there was no pus. yey. it looks like the reason it's struggling to heal is because the bar is too long now. the angles in the bar don't fit in the skin evenly anymore. i read that i should expect something like this. so i'm ordering a new bar online in a sec. i'm a bit worried about changing it, not sure how it's going to work. i 'should' go see a piercer.. but haha i have no way of getting there.

i have to go walk Pandora. she came into season a couple of days ago (oh noes!) so she is feeling rather sorry for herself and needing cuddles. bless her :D

Tags: graphics & code, pierced, world of warcraft
Current Mood: cheerful

geekyness alert

my Shaman just dinged to lvl 40. she can now duel wield (using an axe and a dagger at the moment) and wear mail armor which means i don't 'need' the shield anymore (i got used to the armor the shield gave me and found that i lost health faster without it, which i didn't like). so yeah. woo!

i also have a migraine. i have had it since 1:00 pm yesterday and i still have it (34 hours later). painkillers dull the pain a bit, but dizziness is always there and the fuzzy hearing and sight sort of goes on and off. luckily i only feel sick with it when the pain killers wear off and that's taking 6 hours so i can just take more by then. i have had to take my very first sick day at work today because of it. a year and a half i went without being too ill to work. seems a shame to ruin that.

ooh also, my madison piercing is clearing up. it's not pussy anymore. i have been taking a course penicillin for it and thats definitely doing the trick.

Tags: pierced, world of warcraft
Current Mood: sore

my madison piercing has pus! nooooo!
i forgot to clean it this morning before i went to work. and when i got there it was looking a little crusty and felt a little itchy (though the itchiness could well have been psychological). i didn't feel comfortable leaving it till i got in at lunch time so i bought some TCP and cotton buds to clean it with. possibly not the best thing to have used, but there was nothing else that would have been suitable. either way, it did the trick. i gave it a good clean with salt water when i got home and thats when i realized it was getting skanky. i think i did a pretty good job of cleaning it up. and it doesn't feel 'sore' so maybe that's just normal.
i'm also not particularly happy with the bar in it. it's a proper surface bar and everything, but one side seems to stick up more than the other, and it's not because of my skin, one side is slightly longer than the other. so i'll probably end up going back to have the bar changed when it's all healed.

and in other ground breaking news. i had a grey hair. no seriously. i was looking at my roots thinking that they need colouring and there it was, one hair much, much lighter than the others. way to light be be my natural colour. so yeah.. i'm like. old. i'm 23 in 3 months...

Tags: pierced
Current Mood: shocked

I have hardly anything new to say.
i have another college interview. the letter is here, in front of me. Wednesday 9th may at 1:00. don't let me forget!...

my madison piercing seems ok so far. it's been 10 days. two days ago it was looking awesome, it wasn't red or sore or anything. but it's getting a little sore now. that might be because i slept on it funny, or because on my way back from work a lorry sprayed dust all over me (unintentionally - it was a very dry day and the roads are 'dusty'). so i am keeping a close eye on it, i'm really nervous of it rejecting. i have never had any problems with any of my other piercings, but, eh, i can't help but worry.
i have been cleaning it with salt water, and putting a tea tree oil solution on it, which it seems to like. heh, i have never looked after a piercing this well before.

because of my college interview i have been thinking about my hair again, gosh, when do i 'not' think of my hair? i was contemplating dreadlocks for a while, but after a serious amount of reading (♥♥♥)i think that would be a bad idea for me, for lots of different reasons. i would however like to try my hand as synthetic dreads.. it would take a shocking amount of practice, but i reckon i could make and install them myself. first steps first though, shop around online for suitable hair to practice on.

(mental note, make appointment at hairdressers... before my fringe consumes my face completely)

see, it's all about my hair!

in online news. i am in the middle of creating two new designs for nocturnal.nu. one is basically a remake of a really old design, because i have no creativity these days. the other is also a remake of an old design, but, a bit better with more details. i think the second design is 'better' if i can get it to look ok. the first features Rosiel from Angel Sanctuary (i am returning to me roots :D) the other features, real people. maybe when i'm done, i'll post both for criticism.

Tags: graphics & code, pierced

yeah, that piercing i have been threatening to get. well, i got it.
hurt like hell, and totally made me eat ice cream.
( but soo worth it )

i also managed to miss my college appointment. i have the 25th on the calendar and i am sure that's what the letter said, but apparently it was supposed to be last week. so not i have to re-schedule... and after i bought 'normal' clothes as well. *cry*

Tags: pierced, webcam

oh i feel so sad.
i took out my tongue piercing today. just now actually.
it had been getting sore on a regular basis and i was sick of it. i think it was cause the bar was a bit too short for me. but the size up made my gum sore. sort of lose/lose situation.
it is so weird not having anything there though! i keep going to play with the damned thing and then it's not there!
of course eating is much easier. you kind of forget what it's like to be able to move your tongue 'properly'.

ah i am now consoling myself with chocolate.

there is a thing on the radio at the moment (BBD radio two) about racism. everyone has such good points about it. personally i don't notice 'race' so much. i'm more "the guy in the suit" or "the woman with the bad hair" rather then describing them by race. i don't do it on purpose, it just doesn't occur to me to notice their race.
and as for this whole veil wearing business. wear what you like! i don't find it in the slightest bit off putting to talk to someone who has their face covered. in fact it's easier. don't ask why. but even a beard makes someone easier to talk to.
some humans are quite mad i think.

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